Letter 2

 

I imagine you smiling while reading this. The smile that is devoid of passions but unapologetically serene. 

Isn’t it amazing to experience waking up to the presence of someone with whom you’ve never slept with or rather lived with. I’ve been experiencing it for the past few days and it’s truly beautiful. The tangled emotions to which I open my senses early morning provide me with an alternate reality. A reality that is transient, abstract, yet seems very undying and concrete. I feel complete during these moments but when I realize it’s a world that’s happening only inside my head, I feel intense pain. But, I think now, why do we want to cling to these pleasurable moments. Why can’t we just experience it to the fullest and then experience another reality that can or cannot be intensely beautiful than this. There are endless realities that can happen in our heads. Why are we not letting ourselves feel the taste of it? Why are we afraid of losing it? If we leave moments after experiencing it to the fullest, pain won’t follow us as a tormented animal. I am doing that and I wish the same with you. 

Let me say more about myself. I am in extreme calm when I lay open my emotions through writings. And I also think I feel extremely elated when I am in power and I feel insanely vulnerable when I am in love. As you said, I will try to do things that make me happy. I am in search of those concrete or abstract entities that make me happy. I cannot say I was happy when I was with you for those couple of hours but rather my mind was elated. If we call that happiness, I am sure I will fall into the clutches of passions again. 

I wish you happiness and peace in your life too. I understand we are two different individuals and our lives are so unlike each other but somewhere the lines collided, exchanged the news they heard till then and they parted from each other. They’ve their own destinations to reach and they’re aware of the consequences if they try to stop their journeys and rest. They wish to meet each other again at some point in time and exchange news but with time the wishes will just fade away from their thoughts. Rather than fading away, the wishes will be buried deep inside with the accumulation of more powerful wishes and passions. 

But, who wouldn’t be delighted if surprises happen when it’s least expected  !!